Five

You know that pain chart that hangs in the doctor’s office?

I think most people live between 0 and 1.

I live at 5. There are days when 3 stops by, and then there are days when 8 decides it would be fun to spend the day on the sofa. I’ve had a lot of those 8’s lately, hence the lack of blog posts. I try to make the most of the days when it’s a 4 or 5 so that doesn’t leave much time for being on the computer.

I had an MRI a few weeks ago that showed :


1. Chronic complex tears of the bilateral acetabular labra and suboptimally evaluated bilateral femoroacetabular joint osteoarthrosis as described. 2. High-grade partial-thickness tear of the left gluteus minimus insertion, as well as low-grade partial-thickness tearing of the bilateral conjoined hamstring tendon origins.

And that’s just the left side. (It’s actually the worst, but the right side is a mess too)

What the hell? It appears I ripped a butt muscle. Leave it to moi. I have an appointment with orthopedics in a couple of weeks to discuss what we can do about this situation. I have a TENS machine that I use religiously, and i’m just doing what I can, with a great deal of help from the Bear. Between us, we are almost a healthy person!

There is also some major drama going on with my family. Bear and Maverick and I are fine, this is another family member. Someone is finding out what happens when you poke this dragon. When I can, I will tell the story.

Meanwhile, being on the disabled list has allowed me to catch up on some knitting. I’m making a red, white and blue Wallaby – fun with counting stripes when the pattern suddenly decides that the middle of a row is the beginning. *There’s a valid reason for that. I’m counting rows in one place and decreases in another! It’s only a child’s size 4, so it’s not a major amount of stitches, but it’s enough to make my brain work a tad.

I’m about to finish Charlie Kirk’s first book, and then I need something light so I believe it will be How to Read a Book – that was the last book for my book club and we didn’t get to it because of the faculty strike. (And that was almost pointless, sigh)

And……….if I have to have surgery……………I’m going for the most blinged out cane ever created!

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2 inches of snow and we’re all gonna die

It’s Sunday. We may or may not get a couple of inches of snow on Tuesday. We may or may not get rain instead. It’s a bit too early to tell, honestly.

In recent years, it’s become a sort of game, it seems, on social media, to one up each other with the fearcasters. If one puts out a weather map 4 days before a storm, then the next time around, someone else will put one out 5 days. Each one will announce that “it’s really too early to be certain, but we just want you to BE PREPARED!”

Two inches of snow is barely enough to register under my tires. I hate snow, but when I make myself think about realistically, I know that it’s really not a big deal. If you have bald tires and zero driving skills, then worry. Othewise, slow down and get your foot off the brake and you’ll be fine. Oh, and back off from the car in front of you.

Meanwhile, Bear is debating if he should put the plow on the truck or not. I’m staying away from that decision. This shit is meant to turn to rain so why bother plowing? Actually, what is the point of snow anyway?

Seriously – there’s this lovely Hallmark, romance novel idea out there of a snowy day where everyone wraps in a quilt (hand quilted, of course) in front of a roaring fire (and somehow doesn’t sweat to death) with a cup of hot chocolate (again not sweating to death) and a good book, while the snow falls gently and softly to cover the gound in a pristine white blanket, and everything is clean and wonderful and please excuse me while I vomit. The reality? Deciding if you should put the plow on the truck because 5 years ago, you slid off the driveway and were stuck in your house for 3 days till a neighbor managed to get you plowed out. Deciding if you should go to work and praying your way all the way there, then watching the snow pile up outside while you wonder if the roads will be plowed when you’re ready to go home. Having your kids home – oh, I love this! “My kids want to make a snowman!” Your kids want to play on the computer all afternoon, they do not want to go out in the cold, get wet, get snotty noses and chapped lips, all so you can live out some memory that probably never really happened.

Do I hate snow? Well, yes, as a matter of fact I do. Do I hate the hype surrounding a single flake? Well, yes, as a matter of fact, I do! When did we get to the point where every little snowflake becomes major news that requires hourly updates? Give me strength. Better yet, give me booze

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Politics, election and what I learned, part two

So, things were quiet over the summer. After the primary debacle, I contacted a friend who is pretty politically savvy and asked for his help. He agreed that the PAC had no clue what they were doing, and agreed to help me out. He shall be known as The Voice. (for reasons)

The Voice knows people. He has been involved with local politics and more for years. He had to swallow hard to help out someone running on the Democrat side (not as hard as I did!) but we managed. He advised me to start a website, a Facebook page, a Twitter account, etc. I did all that. Not sure how much good it did, but it was something more than what was being done previously. I also ordered some adorable business cards from Zazzle, who ended up giving them to me after the first order got messed up. Yay, Zazzle.

I published all those social media sites in September (I’ve since taken them down) and then met with the group. I handed out some business cards to friends and neighbors but most of them are still sitting in the boxes. Maybe they’ll get used in a couple of years, we shall see. At this meeting, yard signs were discussed and lots of bitching about how much money the other guys had because they had gotten backing from some of the higher ups in the Republican party and were going with a PAC that has a lot of money. There were signs all over for the other guys, and I had a feeling it wasn’t gonna go well for us. But we kept hearing that “write ins never win” and “we have this person on our side, or that person.”

Yeah, well, so much for that. Meanwhile, my husband was under intense scrutiny at work. He was suddenly being called into disciplinary meetings, only to be told that “well, it’s okay, you’re doing great.” Really?

And then I spoke up against the facilities manager. This guy, known as Cue Ball, wanted a new truck. He informed the board that it was desperately needed because the weather gods had told him we were going to get 1000 feet of snow. (I made that part up. He did tell them that it was absolutely necessary for plowing) The Farmer suggested that the school outsource plowing, that it wouldn’t cost nearly as much as a brand new Ford 350. (Which, by the way, does not mean 350 dollars)

Cue Ball was quite vociferous in his denial of ever having outsourced plowing. I sent a text to the Farmer, during the meeting, that indeed we had and I had first hand knowledge of it. I sent him details, and he spoke out. It got ugly, fast. Not to the point of blows, but it revealed Cue Ball’s real personality. Remember, this guy was my husband’s boss.

The truck was purchased, and the Bear was suddenly incapable of doing anything right. His work was criticized – he was called into meetings and then told that everything was fine. He was called into a meeting because of something he did, explained why he did it, walked out with no disciplinary action. Things escalated. The day after the primary, he was called into a hearing. I can’t say much about it because we’re still pondering things, but he was given a choice of retiring or fighting and since he had surgery coming up, he decided to retire. But that’s not the end of that story – yet.

So nothing was done. I wanted to talk about finances, why so much money was being spent on new trucks that we don’t need while the roofs are still leaking. I wanted to talk about waste, why so much stuff is thrown out instead of being donated or sold or returned. Nope, I was told to focus on education. Well. That would have been fine but no one was actually talking about anything. Except for the other guys, who were all over the place.

I actually talked to one of them at a board meeting. Seems like a nice guy, we have a good bit in common So there’s hope

On election day I was a poll watcher for a few hours. Now, remember, I was running as a “cough” Democrat. So the opposition, the “real” conservatives, were across from us and I was at a booth with a couple of other people who were handing out information. One was a young girl, probably in her early 30’s, late 20’s. Almost immediately, she announced to me that she used to be a Republican but couldn’t tolerate some of the things “they do.” I laughed, and said, “I used to be a Democrat but I couldn’t handle the intolerance of the party of tolerance.” She was immediately on the defensive, “what did SHE do that was so intolerant?” Annoyed, I said, ‘Y’all celebrated Charlie Kirk’s assassination, we’re not the same.” She threw up her hands and said, “Don’t talk to me about him!” I said, “whoa, did you ever watch anything beyond a clip of him speaking?” I was actually saying the last part while she was shouting at me, hands in the air, “NO NO!” I said “okay.” And went back to talking to other people.

About 10 minutes later, she came back. She wanted to show me where she got her news. At this point, you’ve talked over me, yelled at me, and you think I want to continue to interact with you? I said, ‘I have nothing to say to you. You talked over me and refused to let me finish a sentence.” She insisted, she was just trying to educate me. Wrong thing to say to someone who is twice your age (at least) and has 3 degrees. I said, “i’m not here for this, and I”m not continuing this” and walked away.

And then she informed that the guy across the way who was wearing a t-shirt with a confederate flag on it was causing her extreme anxiety. It made her afraid for her child. (Her child wasn’t there.) She’s lost so many rights! I said, “let me tell you about fighting for rights.” She was not about to hear anything. I turned to my friend and said, “I have to go.”

I’m still shaking my head.

At any rate, that mess is over. I will continue to go to board meetings and speak out, and I actually had a very friendly conversation with the two “real” conservatives at the last meeting. In the meantime, my nephew is staying here with us for as long as he wants and I’m sure there will be more – and more fun – stories to share.

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something totally different

This is a tale of a cow and a goat

A cow named Dint and goat named Dont

They live in a meadow just down the road

With Maisy-Moo and a big ugly toad

Dint and Dont are real. So is Maisy-Moo The toad is not. I’m thinking of writing a little story about them and giving it to their owners as a Christmas gift. And I’m bored with myself so I thought I’d share it here.

Coyotes abound, they make an awful sound

I think they might be trying to eat Dont

But I’m not quite sure where this is going.

Anyway, feel free to laugh at me and maybe you’ll get to read the story of Dint and Dont 🙂

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Election, politics and what I learned

part one

From the beginning:

I live in the country, way out in the country, my nearest neighbor is about 800 feet from me. The deer and the antelope play. Well, no, we don’t have antelope. We do have foxes though! (I love foxes) (that’s totally irrelevant, but have you ever known me to worry about such trivialities as relevancy?)

One of my neighbors, who lives 1/2 mile up the road so she’s pretty close by, is 90 years old. I’ve mentioned her before. (Try to keep up) The farmer across the road from her checks on her every day and I try to stop in every few days too. He got elected to school board 4 years ago. At the time, my husband was working at the school. (Stick with me, this is relevant) He would often be checking on Joan when I was visiting her, so we would get to chatting about school stuff. He started bugging me to attend meetings and see for myself.

So I did. And between that and listening to my husband talk about the stuff that was being thrown out, wasted, trashed, I started to speak up.

My husband retired from Harley Davidson after 28 years. He had major surgery that year, spent a year recovering, and the next year watching MASH till I told him if he didn’t soon get a job, I’d shoot the TV. Or him. He found a part time job as a custodian at the school. He has health issues still, all of which were known to the school when he was hired, and as his health has worsened over the years, they have been aware of any physical limitations and accommodations needed. Because he had worked there for several years, eventually going full time, some things were verbally agreed to, and not put in writing – big mistake.

Do not trust an employer to stand by a verbal agreement. Never.

After several months of attending meetings and listening to the board members, I gathered my courage one night and spoke up. I said that they weren’t doing their job, they were elected as the “ABC’s” which stood for “accountability, budget and curriculum.” I said that I’d heard nothing about the budget, which was soon due, or about curriculum.

As time went on, I spoke up more often, about things like the roof leaking while we spent thousands of dollars on a “facility study” to tell us what needed to be fixed when any moron would know that if your roof is leaking, you should probably fix it. When the facilities manager asked for $60,000 for a brand new truck because it was desperately needed, according to him, because we were going to be buried in snow (we plowed twice last year) I let my friend know that we had previously outsourced plowing and that this guy, known to me as CueBall (for reasons) was lying when he said we hadn’t. When he vociferously denied that we had ever outsourced, I searched the old check registers for year back and found that indeed, we had, and brought that information to my friend. By then it was too late, the truck had been purchased, but I spoke at another meeting about what I had found and how long this research took, and stated that the board should have been the ones doing it instead of rubber stamping such a large purchase.

That put a target on the Bear’s back. They started nitpicking his job performance, calling him in on nothing and giving out no discipline. We knew it was retaliation, but we can’t prove it – as we’ve been told over and over. It all came to a head after the primary, when I secured a place on the ballot. The end result was that he was forced to retire. (We’re not through with this mess, so no details there)

After I spoke out the first time, questioning the state of the roofs and why we were finding it necessary to hire someone to do a “facilities study” to tell us to fix them, I was approached by a youngish woman who shall be known as Cathy Chaos (obviously not her real name). She represented a PAC that was looking for candidates. I agreed to meet with her, and brought my friend The Farmer. We were unsure, but decided to give this group a chance.

That was our first mistake.

We didn’t do the research we should have done on this group. I give myself some grace because I had no idea what I was doing, but the other two candidates should have known something was off. They offered to do the required paperwork, and help raise money. Yay, one less thing we have to do.

They called a meeting to introduce everyone and let us know what was happening and also to introduce the person they had chosen to run along with us. Mind you, there were 3 strong conservative Republicans running – so they chose a woman who is a transgender activist to be the fourth member of this group. Yes, you read that correctly, A transgender activist, in a town that is incredibly conservative, they thought this person would have a chance of being elected. Also, she’s a Democrat. (I suppose that went without saying)

That should have been our first red flag.. Actually, it was – but I didn’t act on my instincts. Again, I blame myself.

There were two policies up for debate at the first board meeting after our candidacies were announced. One of them dealt with bathrooms, the other with sports. Both of them were written by a far right law firm that specializes in this sort of thing, and would love to see a lawsuit reach the Supreme Court. The two guys who were up for re-election had already stated their opposition, only because of the terminology. It was a given that these policies would pass, it was 7 to 2 voting for them, and the guys both had explained their reasons for voting no.

The night before the vote, an outside group posted on Facebook that these policies would allow teachers and administrators to check a child’s genitals before allowing them to use the bathroom. This statement was totally untrue, nowhere in the policy was anything like this stated. I messaged the girl in charge of our group, aka CathyChaos, and demanded that this post be taken down. At this point, there were maybe 20 responses. She told me she hadn’t read it. I insisted it be removed. The next morning, it was still there, and now there were well over 200 responses. Again, I demanded that it be taken down, or at least that an explanation be posted saying that it was not true, that we were not the ones who were saying this, etc. She posted something but didn’t really refute the statements.

The meeting was ridiculous. The public comment period consisted of parents talking about how awful this was, the board president mentioned the Facebook post, one gentleman said he would never vote for anyone from our group.

I should have stood up then and agreed with him. The next day, I told the Farmer that I could be certain that this guy would run as a write-in candidate. Not only did he, and another guy, they ended up winning the election.

The primary was in May. PA allows school board candidates to cross file, on the premise (I believe) that school boards should be bi-partisan so it shouldn’t matter which party you’re from. (It matters) As you all know, I ended up winning on the Democrat side and getting trounced on the Republican by – you guessed it – the two write ins. After the primary, the PAC met to discuss strategy. I said, because no one was taking accountability, that we lost because of the Facebook debacle. I was told that I had lost votes because I spoke up about this truck, that the staff “Loves CueBall!” That pissed me off and made me laugh at the same time. (None of the staff can stand him)

As I had predicted, there were two write ins. Cathy Chaos and Turbo Tits wrote them off (see what I there?) as did one of the guys running for re-election. I was told “write ins never win.” (Surprise!) I was angry and they were indifferent.

I’ve never run for an office, not even in high school. But I had some ideas of what I thought we should do. Get endorsements from anyone with any political presence, get a website up and running for each of us, raise money, etc. To this day I don’t really know what the PAC did other than some postcards, knocking on doors, and putting out yard signs. And stirring up chaos.

That was all in May, the summer was pretty quiet. Things geared up in September. That will be part 2, this is quite long enough.

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Waiting

My college has gone on strike. It’s a long story, the short version is that we’ve been trying to work with the admin for three years, we’ve had no raises, the college wants ownership of intellectual property (I’ve created everything in my class except the power point slides and the exam and they all suck, so the college can have those) and a few other things that we, as faculty,aren’t willing to give up. We’ve tried negotiating and they won’t budge so it’s come to this. I expect to hear very shortly whether or not we’re actually doing this. Yes, it will screw up things for the students and I hate that part, but it’s just not sustainable the way things are going.

On top of that is the election. I’m so disgusted with the politics that I don’t even care if I win or lose or this point, I just want it over and done with. I was a poll watcher for a few hours today. The opposition was friendlier than the people on our side. One young black girl who was “helping us” is apparently a died in the wool Democrat and tried to start an argument with me4 times. After she told me how awful Republicans are, and I responded with “you guys celebrated Charlie Kirk being assassinated, don’t tell me about awful,” she responded that he said horrible things about people like her. I asked if she had watched more than a 15 second clip and she put her hand up, yelled NO and backed away. The next time she started, I said that she had shown that she wasn’t willing to listen and only wanted to browbeat me and I wasn’t going to do that. Did that stop her? Of course not. The final time, I said, “I have too much going on in my life right now for this nonsense, this is not what I came here for, I’ve told you to stop, I’m not going to argue with you.” She said she wasn’t arguing, it was a conversation. A conversation I just said I was done with so GO THE FUCK AWAY. ( I didn’t say that last part out loud.) I told the rest of the group that I was done, and left. The polls close at 8, I don’t know when we’ll get results. I can’t wait to be done with these people!

My nephew is staying with us, he left his batshit crazy soon to be ex wife because of the batshit crazy stuff and came here from Maine. I’ve been really happy to have him, honestly. In spite of the stress and bullshit caused by the soon to be ex, aka “Bitchcakes,” having him here has been a blessing. It’s been a long time since we spent time together, his mom was my best friend and I still miss her every day – she passed 33 years ago – so talking and laughing and yes, crying a bit, has been wonderful. We’ve been doing tourist type stuff, too. I’ve long wanted to do a tour of Gettysburg but some things are just not fun alone. We did the auto tour from the National Park Service last week and it was great. Highly recommend! We also did a fast trip to Maine and back – in 4 days, from Southern PA to Northern Maine, 700 miles- to attend a court hearing, which he won.

He’ll be here awhile, because, as the title says, he’s also waiting. Waiting on a date for the divorce hearing, waiting on paperwork so he can get medical leave, waiting to head South to be with his sister who is also going through a divorce, I know he’s bored, and so is the Bear, and I can’t convince either of them to learn to knit or sew or do diamond art.

I’m back in physical therapy. I’ve had trigger point injections in my upper back, another round of shots in my spine and possibly more shots in the piraformis muscles.

Apparently mine are quite tight, so there are trigger point injections for those spots too. I have PT tomorrow and will be discussing it with my therapist.

I’ve been cooking and baking like crazy. I have two guys here who love Boston Cream Pie but a whole one is a bit too much for just two people. Well. I discovered these cute little four inch cake pans on Amazon. I can make mini cakes! I’m so easy to please. 🙂

So now we wait for the election results, and the strike results, and the rest of the world to get it together so the nephew can make plans. I need a shot of brandy and a shower, Bear has made soup for supper and all I have to do is wash the dishes later

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Reading!

At one of our faculty meetings recently, the leader lost her internet in the middle of the meeting so we carried on by discussing any recent books we’d loved. I mentioned a book called Picking Cotton, by Jennifer Thompson-Cannino, and Ronald Cotton.

This book, if you haven’t read it, is amazing. It’s the story of a young white woman who was raped by a black man, and the man who went to prison for the rape. It turned out that he was actually innocent, and the amazing thing is the way he forgave his accuser.

Anyway, that led one of the members of the committee to invite to join her reading group. I’m always up for a good read, so I agreed. The first book is James by Percival Everett

I’m about a third of the way into this, it’s very interesting and sparked a good discussion yesterday. However. Right after I started this, the latest Karin Slaughter, who is one of my favorite authors, came in. I’d put this on hold the day I learned it was being published. Because it’s brand new, I wanted to read it quickly so the other people waiting for it wouldn’t have to wait forever.

Her books are quick reads but it still took me away from James. After the meeing, I realized that we’re actually meeting every week and I need to finish James by next Wednesday. I went to the library website to reserve the next book for the group and saw a message – two books I had reserved were in. Oh dear Lord. One is the latest Cormoran Strike book. I’ve been waiting for this book for months, it was just released on September 2nd, I was about peeing myself with excitement!

I went to the library and picked up the two on reserve as well as the next one for the group. If you need me, I’ll be on the porch with a book. For the next two weeks.

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Max and the Watermelon

He picked this himself. Max was my first Golden Retriever. He’s been gone for 7 years – I’m sure he’s currently showing Penny around in Heaven

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Penny

Yesterday at around 1, my friend called, frantic. Her choclate lab, Penny, was down and couldn’t get up. Penny was almost 13, her mom is 90. I grabbed the Bear and we went to help. I called our daycare/groomer/trainer to come help lifting Penny into my car so we could take her to the vet. She checked breathing and heart, said to get Penny in to the vet as soon as possible. Several frantic phone calls later, we had an appointment at 2:30.

Meanwhile, my friend’s son decided to be a total asshat. I’m so angry with him still that I can barely see straight. Penny was down, and then she got up. He pronounced it a miracle and that she was fine! No, asshole, she was NOT fine. Then he decided to argue with me and M about making her walk into the house. Penny was in heart failure, effin pick her up and carry her, you moron. M’s husband did the lifting. (M is trainer/groomer/daycare lady) Meanwhile, my 90 year old friend is falling to pieces and her son stormed off, announcing that he was obviously not needed. No, asshole, you were NOT needed.

We took Penny to the vet at 2. He did x-rays. She was in respiratory and heart failure due to fluid around her heart, there was really nothing to be done and at 13, any extraordinary measures were beyond her. Her mom made the decision to open Heaven’s door for her.

It was peaceful but horrible. I gave her so many kisses, petted her, let her know how much she was loved by so many people. And when it was over, her mom fell apart. More than she had already.

I spent the afternoon with her. Her granddaughter and another friend were there too. If you have a prayer to spare, send one up for Joan. I’m not sure how she’ll make it without her Penny – who was, quite honestly, the best dog who ever lived.

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Shot again

Tomorrow I’m getting a shot in my hip. I switched doctors after talking to my family doctor, he referred me to a different neurosurgeon and that doctor sent me to pain management as the first step to resolving my back and hip issues. I’m not thrilled with the idea of another shot, the last one in my back was an epic fail, but I’m hopeful – this guy seems to have more of a clue than my previous doctor. I loved her, and she was great, but I got the feeling she gave up on me once the last round of shots made things worse.

Fresh eyes, fresh approach, new ideas. I’m praying. If you have a minute, send one up for me – this pain is exhausting and I’m tired of myself. I’m tired of being a crabby old woman.

In other news, there really isn’t any other news. Updates will be forthcoming!

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